Testimony

prayer..

prayer.. (Photo credit: aronki)

As you can see, I am on the net. Whoo- Hoo! Don’t have much time, so I have to share a poem based on my true story. It is written simply, no scholarly attempt to complicate the message I have for all. I Hope you all feel this in your hearts!

 

                                                                       TESTIMONY

Words spoken to my ears,

Bringing anger, sadness and torrential tears.

Anger burst, my heart, was now pierced,

A blow most shattering, cruel and fierce.

Blades and pills ran amuck in my mood,

The devil telling me my worth was no good.

Painful tugs in hearts and souls,

Hurtful words to break my goal.

I prayed, my Lord, To forgive my urge,

I prayed to Jesus, to help me purge.

Lonely, unwanted, the darkest of time,

The Devil still clinging so hard to my mind.

A knock at the door, I welcomed in desperation,

A kind Christian heart to explain my salvation.

The Lord had spoken, for him to come to me,

My God heard my prayers, thus lifting me.

The Devil was gone, he had lost his fight,

My Savior made known his presence that night.

Surrounding my heart, came the calm, so deep,

The Lord had granted me unburdened  sleep.

 

horses

Amazing

I had the most glorious day yesterday, as well as today. I have finally come to a very big decision. When my teenager graduates in a few years, I am moving to Montana. I have my brothers who have purchased a large amount of land, and also are finishing up, their custom house. It is so beautiful there. I want the nature.

In their area, dear do not run away, they observe you. Many elk roam the area. Horses are free range and friendly! Just the other day, my brothers had to stop in the road, because the horses wanted to observe them, and came up to the car!!! I figured, that that’s how I want to live. Open and free! Surrounded by the most beautiful scenery.

Another amazing thing happened yesterday! I received a letter from a very special person in my life! In this letter were some beautifully encouraging words, and the most amazing rosary she made for me! That so lifted my spirits! I wasn’t really sad at the time, but when I received this, I was elated! I had the biggest smile on my face, and wished I could just reach out and give her the biggest hug and thanks!

I am feeling so positive! It’s been awhile since I have been so happy. Montana was where I was wanted, but I couldn’t make my mind up on what to do! My husband was so happy when he heard my decision. We have cabin fever. This is the area where I will be!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now, I don’t know about you, but I want to embrace the nature that is being offered to me! If I could go right now, I would. However, I do want my daughter to be able to graduate with all the classmates she grew up with! More setup is being completed on the land! To finish, I am doing great with managing my pain with positivity. I am still limited, but I can’t wait to have a cup of coffee in the morning, on a deck, surrounded by nature!

Too Funny! (mature content)

I was just watching the trailer for Andy Samberg  and Adam Sandlers movie! I have to see this, It looks hilarious. There is Mature content in this video, so please, If you are easily offended or under 18, you may not watch! For those of you who find this humorous, I’m glad you enjoyed as much as I did! :)

 

Trouble

I have been having much trouble trying to keep up with blogs and posting. My site here keeps giving me problems. I am not very computer literate, and learn by trial and error. This obviously makes for very frustrated moments. All very time consuming, winding up leaving me worse than before. Then I just shut down the computer, at a loss of what to do next.

I claim to be backwards, because I am. In case anyone has been wondering. I even have a hard time clicking the like button on another bloggers page. Don’t think I am not reading, I do, but my account will not let me complete the tasks I want. Hopefully, I will get this fixed!

30-caliber-survival-rifle b ammo

Target Practice

Guns. The right to bare arms, I support the NRA. I have had much experience with guns. Always target practice, and skeet shooting, with rifles. I could never be a hunter, unless I was the prey. Pistols, rifles, you name it, I’ll tell you if I experienced one. Colt 45, 22 millimeter, 44 magnum, Desert Eagle 50 caliber. Some rifles include 10 gauge double barrel, 12 gauge, AK47, 30 ot 6 sniper rifle with scope and tripod. There have been many.

The sport of target shootingis exhilarating. I tend to be fond of the more powerful guns and rifles. My favorite of handguns is the 50 caliber Desert Eagle

Desert Eagle 50 caliber brushed chrome

Desert Eagle 50 caliber brushed chrome (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Favorite rifle is the 30 ot 6

The 30 ot 6 I used with a scope and tri-pod. It’s a sniper rifle. Massive recoil, bruising my shoulder, even with my added padding. Had I only knew at a younger age, I might have pursued in excelling my target with the 30 ot 6 rifle. My husband had always said I would make a good sniper. No, I can’t kill living things. It’s nice to know that as a woman though. Guns don’t kill people, people kill people.

Ammunition for 30 ot 6 rifle

No Use Crying Over Spilled Milk

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Crying emoticon (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Yesterday was too busy of a day. I spoke my mind, not so kindly, and received a barrage of complaints from some bloggers. I went out of my way, to profusely apologize, to no avail of the person I targeted. This person had re-blogged a post, that I completely disagreed with. Next the original poster had to come to his defense. After much time posting and apologizing, the re-blogger had nothing to say. Instead, I had to converse through his adviser, the original blogger.

I believe in the freedom of speech. This particular person kept saying he wasn’t the original writer to the post, that they only re-blogged. This got me thinking even more. If you re-blog something, it means you agree with it. Furthermore, I had to do the educational battle with the original poster. As pleasing as she made her resume seem, I still don’t agree with her theory, completely subjective, her own quote. I feel I bent over backwards for hurting someones feelings, and still no response.

I’m not going to agree with something I truly believe is quite wrong. I have much education in the medical field as well, and while being subjective, I find the information posted, is very misleading to those who suffer with fibromyalgia. Pain gets me down, not the other way around. I do not have flare-ups because I’m feeling down, I have flare-ups from over doing what my body can tolerate. If people want to believe the theory that psychosomatic issues bring on pain, then by all means go for it. I for one find it quite absurd. That’s my subjective opinion.

I will not again, go out of my way to kiss someones ass, because we disagree. It was a complete waste of my time. Find your inspiration where you may, but don’t be misleading on causes of fibromyalgia. If you want to re-blog a post, stand behind it, and don’t sig your Professionals(using that term loosely) to fight your battles. I may have disagreed by lashing out, but guess what? I disagreed. Let’s not cry over spilled milk.

I have gotten this off my chest. Life isn’t fair, and people agree to disagree. You could have walked away from the battle, but chose to continue it, as did I, by trying to be heartfelt and nice. In the end I still disagree with the blog post, and being nice led nowhere. Why you ask? Because I have the freedom and education on my syndrome to post what I believe. I am disappointed in myself for not debating on the issue to my satisfaction. Next time, I will debate. Sometimes you just have to stand up for what you believe in. I believe much differently from some other theories presented on the causes of fibromyalgia. It is a syndrome, that still is in debate, and has not been proved. Fibromyalgia has inconclusive evidence to suggest it is in the mind, and you can control it simply by being positive. This is a musculoskeletal disorder, a connective tissue disorder. So let’s just agree to disagree.