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Amazing

I had the most glorious day yesterday, as well as today. I have finally come to a very big decision. When my teenager graduates in a few years, I am moving to Montana. I have my brothers who have purchased a large amount of land, and also are finishing up, their custom house. It is so beautiful there. I want the nature.

In their area, dear do not run away, they observe you. Many elk roam the area. Horses are free range and friendly! Just the other day, my brothers had to stop in the road, because the horses wanted to observe them, and came up to the car!!! I figured, that that’s how I want to live. Open and free! Surrounded by the most beautiful scenery.

Another amazing thing happened yesterday! I received a letter from a very special person in my life! In this letter were some beautifully encouraging words, and the most amazing rosary she made for me! That so lifted my spirits! I wasn’t really sad at the time, but when I received this, I was elated! I had the biggest smile on my face, and wished I could just reach out and give her the biggest hug and thanks!

I am feeling so positive! It’s been awhile since I have been so happy. Montana was where I was wanted, but I couldn’t make my mind up on what to do! My husband was so happy when he heard my decision. We have cabin fever. This is the area where I will be!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now, I don’t know about you, but I want to embrace the nature that is being offered to me! If I could go right now, I would. However, I do want my daughter to be able to graduate with all the classmates she grew up with! More setup is being completed on the land! To finish, I am doing great with managing my pain with positivity. I am still limited, but I can’t wait to have a cup of coffee in the morning, on a deck, surrounded by nature!

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Yes, I know I’m stuck on the Foo-Fighters right now. Not only do I love the beautiful Poetry in this song, but also the humorous presentation! Dave Grohl is also quite the actor. Please watch and have a great smile, … Continue reading

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Wonderful

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I must admit I’ve had the most wonderful day today! Mustered up energy, wasn’t too hard to do, and helped with my beautiful Elliana! My Daughter lives in the apartment above me. I had lots of activity walking up and … Continue reading

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Meaningful Me

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Alone, I sit and think of nice things. Comforting moments and beautiful people. Emotions of happiness this does bring.   I’m at peace foe awhile. Emotions are flowing. Brings to my face, a shining bright smile.   I hope that … Continue reading

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My Angel

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My beautiful little angel, Elliana Kay Anderson! A job well done by my Beautiful daughter, Danielle, and cherished, son-in-law, Allan! Related articles Sunday, A is for Angel… (todayithink.wordpress.com)

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After writing my ode, to my enemy, Fibromyalgia, I went to bed. The pain still stifling, I tossed and turned for about an hour. Then I was hungry, so I slithered out of my bed, and slowly made my way to the kitchen. Guess what? The husband was hungry too.

His choice is as follows : Bowl, ice cream, blackberries, more ice cream on top, a big sliced orange on the side. Diabetics (i almost wrote diabetics, the word Die in it), both my husband and I. Diabetics have to count carbohydrates, Not just sugars. Sugars are included in the carbohydrate Information. Choosing fruits is fine with moderation, but too much provides your body too many Carbs. He had about 80 carbs in that meal. I made the remark of how this is why MY Blood Sugars (A1C score, tells how much sugar is in your blood. Having sugar in your blood-flow, is like having tiny razors cutting through everything, in your system.

My choice is as follows: 3 Claussen pickle spears, and 2 oz of block, cheddar cheese. And one oz. of Sun_Chips. Now why on earth would MY blood sugars possibly better? The math, the quantity, the insulin bolus. I didn’t even take my bolus. My blood sugars this morning, 122, that’s perfect for me. Didn’t have to bolus to drink my coffee with sugar. My body will run on that. I know what your thinking, no wonder your sugars crash all the time. I just do not have an appetite.

This morning I woke up tired, and not suffering from too much from pain. That has changed again, I’m going to have to make myself get some good moving around, to try to stretch those muscles.

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I’m Not Sad

A tear rolls down my cheek

I’m not sad

No more my life feels bleak.

Many comforts engulf my mind

I’m not sad

True love is hard to find.

I found that love emotion

I’m not sad

It spills upon me like the ocean.

Worlds I have found amiss

I’m not sad

I’m submerged in bliss.

Many great things I explore

I’m not sad

My mind wraps around my core.

I’ve hit a milestone incredibly

I’m not sad

I’m happy for it idebtedly!

Exciting

I'm a WreckI’m at a new milestone in my life, a new chapter, and it’s pretty exciting! With the birth of my grandchild, and being able to be close to and with my daughter, it’s been an adrenaline rush!

Last night, when I got home from my daughters place around 9:30p.m., my blood glucose had dropped to 74. Not deadly, but in need of immediate attention, because, once you start dropping, the decline is fast. I was just shaking trying to get off the phone with updates, I could barely hold the phone. I alway’s tend to push my self to the breaking point, and I don’t know why I can’t discipline myself. Ate, was exhausted, and went to bed, shaking as if I drank a pot of coffee. I couldn’t fall asleep until about 3a.m..

Today was quiet, I was sore with a flare-up, and just oh so tired. I swear if you got a look at me, you would have thought I had just given birth! Just as I laid down to take a nap, my daughter needed me. It was 1:30, and I wanted to take a nap, before my teenage daughter came home for school. Mommy duty….up I went to assist my beautiful daughter. She too, was so extremely exhausted, and very much-needed to rest. I gave my daughter some child-rearing tips and eased her mind.

It did not seem that long, but I was just dripping sweat, literally, like crying. I kept brushing my forehead off, and was having double-vision, was almost going out. My daughter woke up, with a fresh burst of energy. She seen me, and knew I wasn’t doing too well. I didn’t know if her place was just too warm, it always is, or if my blood glucose was crashing. I asked her to get me a blood glucose meter, and she couldn’t find it easily. Then I just said, “Just bring me a glass of juice, it will help me either way. I downed 8 ounces of Grape Juicy-Juice in 15 seconds.

Daughter was good, Mom was bad, so I went home to rest. I napped for a couple of hours and woke up at 7:00 p.m.. Now was the time for the computer to update my progress. I have found so many people through Facebook and WordPress, that are so great and caring. Every one, unique in their own ways! I adore creativeness, and pass this to my children. My oldest is a Graphic Designer for a printing company. My youngest, just absolutely blows me away, with the pictures she makes. If I ever get another tattoo, it will be a small piece of her artwork. Seriously, she’s that good. I should have her older sister scan her pictures for me, so I can upload quality images.

I actually have the television on. Cleve, from Monster Man, just came on. I love watching him, he’s awesome! Their family is so funny, just like most of our own. It’s recording, so I can continue, even though it’s going to distract me. They’re doing work for Dreamworks on this episode! My daughter is familiar with someone from Dreamworks, pretty cool.

Nice hot shower and soak tonight, and hoping to really be able to sleep through the night. Bless all of my followers! It is so compelling to have so many friends from different countries and cultures. Can’t forget all my friends I grew up with, who I socialize with on Facebook. I’ve been a little neglectful to Facebook. I just love my WordPress, writing, sharing, and finding very meaningful people to me. Facebook does not give me that privilege. So, I post all my stuff on Facebook. No I don’t want to create a Facebook page. WordPress consumes me!

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Smiling

Yesterday, I got to hold my precious little grandchild, Elliana! It was the most beautiful thing ever, besides holding my own babies, even now. My husband said I couldn’t stop smiling. I will say this, even when he seems inattentive, my husband always loves to watch me smiling ever so happily.

Poor Danni was so overwhelmed with visits. She was absolutely exhausted! I told her she HAD to sleep and REST! It was okay for Elliana to be with the awesome nurses at the hospital, which as a mother, I observed very closely! I was very scrutinizing, without them knowing, and they passed my test. Elliana was in great hands, and I let Danni know that it was okay.

They should be coming home today, so if I am not posting on my regular schedule, it is because I’m there for my daughter, and family. I swear I didn’t want to let that baby go. On the drive home, with my daughter’s husband, I apologized if I had hogged the baby from visitors. He replied, “No, you are very much deserving of that before anyone else!”. I’m telling you, My daughter picked a great one, and I completely trust his care with my daughter. Well, he is family, a very welcomed addition! We love you Allan!

So, please forgive me, if I do not get to my responses right away, I’m on cloud nine right now, and have baby on the brain!!!

Elliana Kay, with mommy!

WHAT??!!!!!! Okay, All Better

I’m sitting here right now, wide awake, thinking of my daughter and son-in-law, and my beautiful grandchild. Shannon stayed home from school, to be able to go see her niece. Fine about that, however, they are doing random inspections of apartments. I don’t know about you, but I must be here. I don’t like people entering my home, when no one is here. I don’t want someone looking in my dresser drawers, or cabinets. It’s nobody’s business.

We all had a late night last night. I’m sure my husband was up all night as usual. Well, here I sit, the only one awake, but I can’t leave. I just told everybody it’s time to get up. Of course, no one is listening to me. On top of that, they are angry, because I am being relentless. Why MOM? Duh!!! Get the F^ck up, already. I am so sick of this. I have to be responsible for everything? NO!!!!!

I’m supposed to be happy that my daughter had a healthy baby and her health is good. But at this time, I’m feeling quite angry! Things need to be done, and taken care of. If you want to stay up all night, then do your chores then. If you don’t, I’m going to wake your ass up. And the real good part is no one listens, until I get mean! Why does that have to be? Do they think I’m some kind of pushover?

Hey! I’m back to my draft! Everybody’s up, chores are done, and now we’re getting along. We can focus on our new blessing, and take care of their cat upstairs. What I do not understand is, why I have to be mean and demanding, to get cooperation? It must mean that when I go into Mother mode, they either get up, or listen to me bitch…..hahahahahahaha. It works, but I hate it! I like to stay in a good mood!

Now I’m just hoping I can speak with my daughter over the phone. Every time I call, she is with the baby, or nurse, and info comes from daddy. Then he can’t talk because he’s a big part in taking care of Elliana Kay! Right now I’m just wondering if I’m gonna call baby by her full name, or Elli. Full names usually mean you’re in trouble. Sometimes I even call my husband by his full name. He then calls me by my full name….too funny!

Either way, I’m in a great mood now, and that’s a great thing! Love you all! Thanks for all the attention for Elliana Kay! I’m a proud Nonna!