Testimony

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As you can see, I am on the net. Whoo- Hoo! Don’t have much time, so I have to share a poem based on my true story. It is written simply, no scholarly attempt to complicate the message I have for all. I Hope you all feel this in your hearts!

 

                                                                       TESTIMONY

Words spoken to my ears,

Bringing anger, sadness and torrential tears.

Anger burst, my heart, was now pierced,

A blow most shattering, cruel and fierce.

Blades and pills ran amuck in my mood,

The devil telling me my worth was no good.

Painful tugs in hearts and souls,

Hurtful words to break my goal.

I prayed, my Lord, To forgive my urge,

I prayed to Jesus, to help me purge.

Lonely, unwanted, the darkest of time,

The Devil still clinging so hard to my mind.

A knock at the door, I welcomed in desperation,

A kind Christian heart to explain my salvation.

The Lord had spoken, for him to come to me,

My God heard my prayers, thus lifting me.

The Devil was gone, he had lost his fight,

My Savior made known his presence that night.

Surrounding my heart, came the calm, so deep,

The Lord had granted me unburdened  sleep.

 

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I’m Not Sad

A tear rolls down my cheek

I’m not sad

No more my life feels bleak.

Many comforts engulf my mind

I’m not sad

True love is hard to find.

I found that love emotion

I’m not sad

It spills upon me like the ocean.

Worlds I have found amiss

I’m not sad

I’m submerged in bliss.

Many great things I explore

I’m not sad

My mind wraps around my core.

I’ve hit a milestone incredibly

I’m not sad

I’m happy for it idebtedly!

My Easter Grandchild!

Okay folks, please meet my first grandchild, born yesterday, on Easter Sunday! I’m so happy to introduce Elliana Kay!

I’m so in love!

Starting Change

So, since I have ranted about being sick of taking pain pills, I’ve started weening myself off! YAY! Now, I’ve had people comment, ‘Don’t stop taking them, it’ll kill you’! My thoughts? I’m not taking one pain pill, till I can’t stand the pain. If that means I’ve cut them out almost 75%, than so be it. I figure that only God knows when it’s my time to go.

I have pain now, but just taking a pill is only putting a band-aid on. Actually, its more like ingesting poison. I want my life back dammit, I’m taking it back, and right now I’m keeping really strong!

I know when people comment about there worries of me not taking my medication, it is because they have a genuine concern. But, I’m like a Hippie. That is just nonsense to me. I know my body, and how it feels. I’m just stubborn that way. Say what you will, but I know what’s right for me.

So, on a positive note, I’m moving along, and no longer stuck in a stale-mate. I know there will be harder days than others, so I need to thrive on positivity! Even though I was so down last night, how ironic of me! But it is now yet another day!

My cat spilled water all over my cell phone, my bodies aching, yet, I’m still in a good mood. If I was on my meds, I don’t think I’d be in a good mood. Now that to me is some positivity.

God is listening to me and Jesus is keeping his compassion with me. I couldn’t be in a better place for this journey I’m on right now.

Vows at Peace…..

So much angst and sorrow soaked in my soul.

Every tear that streamed was torrid desperation.

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, no choice but to stay.

Discreet hurt perpetrated every day life.

Most times, the mask worn to camouflage the grief.

Undernourished from the truths I desired.

Solitary manifestation hidden by laughter and smiles.

Children confused by disguised dysfunction.

Silence of truth, false expectations, meandering.

Self distortion, deprivation, obscured induction.

God, faith, hope, cradled my heart.

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Self identity proclaimed.

Pragmatic thoughts have learned precision.

Tiny seed of love, bloomed to magnificence.

Tears, miraculously turned into abundant smiles.

Turbulence eased, thoughts soft and compassionate.

God has saved us from stagnant feelings.

God has given us grace and hope.

We overcame and united.

Many years of unrest and yearning,

Cast out to the virulent hopes of Satan.

Finally we are virtuous and elated,

For the eminent path that lies ahead,

Oh, thank you Lord, for the majestic guidance.

JMD