Truly Inspired

For 8yrs now, I’ve been overcome by debilitating ailments, rendering myself disabled. Suffering with depression all my life, these ailments really set me on a downward spiral, to now include severe anxiety attacks!

All my life, I’ve been a person who took pride in doing the best job I could, no matter what the status of that job was. Is was a real blow to my happiness to have to depend on others, and feel like a burden, for all the simple things I took for granted. I WAS THE CARETAKER! WHAT HAPPENED TO ME? WHY? I went as far to work 8 mos. as a Nursing assistant, while two ribs were broke, not cracked, actually broke and seperated. Of course at that time, I just bit the bullet, while my Doctors and I was unaware my ribs were broke.

I was slowly getting worse. I had to spend more time in bed, had to resign from my job, couldn’t keep up with the housework, and wasn’t able to provide my family with home cooked meals on a regular basis. I was an emotional mess. I was not only damaged physically, but emotionally also. My oldest Daughter, and her boyfriend, now my irreplaceable Son-In-Law, took very good care of me. As much as they could, while working and pursuing degrees. I would go to my Psychologist, and she would always ask me what made me happy. I couldn’t do the things that made me happy anymore.

Writing! Writing would truly make me happy. I was always into poetry and such, so I thought, now is my time to write a novel. If for anything, at least an accomplishment I could be proud of. I didn’t have a PC, so it was old-school, pen and paper. I wrote 53 pages, and kind of fell away, like writer’s-block. I wrote a lot of poetry, but it was so dark, because I still was suffering from severe depression. Feeling unworthy, useless.

I had marriage problems, and lived in this very old, falling apart, farm house in the middle of nowhere. I had to get away. I was not going to get better in that house! So, with the help of my Daughter, and now Son-In-Law, I moved to a nice quiet apartment with my youngest daughter, Shannon! In town! I was in my glory, getting a fresh start! Eventually, I let my husband move in with me 3 mos. later. He needed to get away from that oppressive house, also.

So here I am, with a laptop, and all my ailments, with a new attitude. I had to focus on being positive. Training my mind to see all the great gifts that most of us take for granted. Then I stumbled into WordPress. I thought to myself, ‘Perfect, I can now write, anything I want, and hopefully inspire others’! And here I am, just tickled pink, that I can write what my heart desire’s!

I’m so glad to have found WordPress, and plan to purchase my domain! It keeps me positive, and I hope the people who read my blogs get a little something positive from them and keep trucking on through this wonderful life, even though it doesn’t always feel wonderful!   🙂


21 comments on “Truly Inspired

  1. I am very happy fr you, for all new changes in your life. Thank you for sharing something that private with all of us. And thank you for stopping by and your decision to follow my blog. Best wishes, Yelena.

  2. Thank you for sharing your trials and triumphs. I think the act of sharing our truths is one of the most intimate and empowering things we can do.

    • Intimate, yes! I know I’m not alone, so maybe somewhere, my word, might inspire someone else. Even if it’s just a recognition! Thanks for the thoughtful comment!

  3. I too suffer from anxiety attacks. They really make life a lot more difficult in a way that most people don’t understand. I’ve had so many people say to me “what does an anxiety attack feel like? How do you know you’re having one?” They are one of those things that you feel so strongly, but are so hard to explain how painful and awful they are to those who have never been there.

    Blogging has also helped me with my anxiety/depression (an awful cycle that never seems to end). Keep your head up! Keep writing! The blogging community can be as supportive – if not more – than your next door neighbors 🙂

    • This page has helped me so much. Know that you’re not alone! Keeping positive is the best thing ever! I love my page here at WordPress. Thank you for sharing your thoughts! And I’m so glad you integrated your WordPress site into positive energy! And also, thanks for the post, it was very uplifting! 🙂

  4. My dearest Danni,
    You’re so right, time is flying by, so now I will remember 7! LOL 🙂 ! Always remember how much you and Allan mean to me, and I will never forget your support, now, and in the past! Now go on and have a happy day, and give baby Anderson a shout out from Nona! 🙂 Come over tonight!

  5. I guess I didn’t comment here. I blame it on pregnancy brain for that. 🙂
    Allan and I were very happy to help you out! We worry about your well being because we love you. 🙂 Also are you ready for this? I’m 7 months pregnant now…not six. Time is moving fast!

    I am happy you have found something fun to do especially in combating life’s hard moments. 🙂

  6. Sunshine,
    I’m so happy to have you a part of my life. You INSPIRE me! There’s nothing that makes me happier, than you taking part in reading my blogs! It means so much to me, as you do also. I will always love you and am so happy that we have a connection! Don’t forget, SMILE today! 🙂

  7. Thanks, Joey! You are truly inspiring to me. The more I learn about you, the more I admire you! Coincidentally, I was talking with a close friend about panic attacks today (we have both had one major one in our lives — mine caused me to quit court reporting school when I only had weeks left until I graduated; my friend’s caused her to quit the HS volleyball team). I don’t think I have ever experienced anything so terrifying, and luckily I never had a severe one again.

    I love the way you turn your depression around with another activity like writing. Keep writing, Sunshine!!! Can’t wait to read your next blog! 🙂

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