No Use Crying Over Spilled Milk

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Crying emoticon (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Yesterday was too busy of a day. I spoke my mind, not so kindly, and received a barrage of complaints from some bloggers. I went out of my way, to profusely apologize, to no avail of the person I targeted. This person had re-blogged a post, that I completely disagreed with. Next the original poster had to come to his defense. After much time posting and apologizing, the re-blogger had nothing to say. Instead, I had to converse through his adviser, the original blogger.

I believe in the freedom of speech. This particular person kept saying he wasn’t the original writer to the post, that they only re-blogged. This got me thinking even more. If you re-blog something, it means you agree with it. Furthermore, I had to do the educational battle with the original poster. As pleasing as she made her resume seem, I still don’t agree with her theory, completely subjective, her own quote. I feel I bent over backwards for hurting someones feelings, and still no response.

I’m not going to agree with something I truly believe is quite wrong. I have much education in the medical field as well, and while being subjective, I find the information posted, is very misleading to those who suffer with fibromyalgia. Pain gets me down, not the other way around. I do not have flare-ups because I’m feeling down, I have flare-ups from over doing what my body can tolerate. If people want to believe the theory that psychosomatic issues bring on pain, then by all means go for it. I for one find it quite absurd. That’s my subjective opinion.

I will not again, go out of my way to kiss someones ass, because we disagree. It was a complete waste of my time. Find your inspiration where you may, but don’t be misleading on causes of fibromyalgia. If you want to re-blog a post, stand behind it, and don’t sig your Professionals(using that term loosely) to fight your battles. I may have disagreed by lashing out, but guess what? I disagreed. Let’s not cry over spilled milk.

I have gotten this off my chest. Life isn’t fair, and people agree to disagree. You could have walked away from the battle, but chose to continue it, as did I, by trying to be heartfelt and nice. In the end I still disagree with the blog post, and being nice led nowhere. Why you ask? Because I have the freedom and education on my syndrome to post what I believe. I am disappointed in myself for not debating on the issue to my satisfaction. Next time, I will debate. Sometimes you just have to stand up for what you believe in. I believe much differently from some other theories presented on the causes of fibromyalgia. It is a syndrome, that still is in debate, and has not been proved. Fibromyalgia has inconclusive evidence to suggest it is in the mind, and you can control it simply by being positive. This is a musculoskeletal disorder, a connective tissue disorder. So let’s just agree to disagree.


What It Means To Me

My site here at WordPress, is my personal therapist. I have shared things, without hesitation, because I feel freedom!  An ability to say how I feel, share my heart, and mostly, seeing how many beautiful people this world holds.

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WordPress Logo (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

My site is called backwards222, because I get very unorganized. My mind rarely shuts off, so random thoughts just keep popping up. So it is really a mixture of all my thoughts as they randomly appear. So I consider my site backwards.

I receive many warm thoughts, laughter, caring and sharing, for opening my heart, and letting it all go. You can never have too much love in your life. Even suffering pain will not keep me from my happy place, WordPress. When people say they wish they could somehow help me, I think to myself, they are, just because they care.

I may have limitations physically, but my heart and faith, keeps me moving along the best I can. My friends, and I do mean friends, even if we never actually met physically, keep my soul afire. I thank you all.

I have a video of Journey performing live, Wheel In The Sky, it’s a lovely piece, so I hope you watch and enjoy this. And once again, thank you, my dear friends!

Electronic What?!

Electronic cigarette charger

Electronic cigarette charger (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Howdy everyone! While in the process of weaning off my medication, I had went back to smoking. You know the saying, trade one addiction for another. Costly! Worst, my husband also is smoking. Now that’s pricey. Bad choice in spending the money.

I went back to smoking my electronic cigarette. It is a battery, Cartomizer(the filter with an electronic charge). This is a device that simulates smoking. You fill the cartomizer with a non-toxic, flavored oil, and has nicotine in it. It is considered by the doctors, that know this device, that you are now a non-smoker. You do not get all the carcinogens, and added tar, or lung damage. You do not present a hazard to our non-smokers.

Electronic Cigarettes

Electronic Cigarettes (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I know it’s a bad photo, my digital camera is ancient, but this is what i have at hand. A Vapor King from

Varieties of the Electronic Cigarette, Also known as an e-cigarette, are very differing in price and quality. Do not waste your time on the free-trial offer from the television. Not suggested. Get online and start searching and learning. I am now back to being a vaping queen.(Vaping: also a word used in e-cig market.)

Another great feature of vaping, is the varieties of flavors, nicotine strengths, and different styles of the battery. That is the Stealth Vapor King. I also have the Diamond Vapor King, in several colors. It has what appears to be a jewel at the end, and when you use, the jewel lights up.

If you are thinking about kicking the habit, why don’t you have a look at an electronic cigarette site. Do your research before making a choice. It will save you hundreds of dollars, and most importantly, your life! (found better photo!)

Conflicting Thoughts

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A penny for your thoughts...Dollars for your thoughts - NARA - 513735 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

  • I seem to have this problem. I can look at the pro’s and con’s of everything. Thus leaving me with conflicting thoughts. Thoughts such as : I’m doing this, when I should be doing that.
  • The dishes aren’t going to magically be cleaned by your family.Get it done!
  • Oh, you’re always hurting, shut up, already! Bite the bullet, and get on with it.
  • Family ” You want us to do WHAT?” You know your going to do it yourself.

These things run through my head quite a bit. It exhausts me, especially during a flare up, that can last weeks. However, it’s taking weeks, because I’m unable to recover myself. It’s fine tuned in my head, that these are my duties. Duties I vowed to uphold when I became a mother and a wife.

I didn’t plan on receiving my syndrome at such a young age. I feel that 36 is much too young to start feeling 80. I hauled butt all my life. Abuse my body, I did. I often wonder if my eating disorder, had made me sick.

Am I the only one who feels this way?

Pretty Good!

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idealized curves of human blood glucose and insulin concentrations during the course of a day containing three meals; in addition, effect of sugar-rich meal is highlighted; (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

After writing my ode, to my enemy, Fibromyalgia, I went to bed. The pain still stifling, I tossed and turned for about an hour. Then I was hungry, so I slithered out of my bed, and slowly made my way to the kitchen. Guess what? The husband was hungry too.

His choice is as follows : Bowl, ice cream, blackberries, more ice cream on top, a big sliced orange on the side. Diabetics (i almost wrote diabetics, the word Die in it), both my husband and I. Diabetics have to count carbohydrates, Not just sugars. Sugars are included in the carbohydrate Information. Choosing fruits is fine with moderation, but too much provides your body too many Carbs. He had about 80 carbs in that meal. I made the remark of how this is why MY Blood Sugars (A1C score, tells how much sugar is in your blood. Having sugar in your blood-flow, is like having tiny razors cutting through everything, in your system.

My choice is as follows: 3 Claussen pickle spears, and 2 oz of block, cheddar cheese. And one oz. of Sun_Chips. Now why on earth would MY blood sugars possibly better? The math, the quantity, the insulin bolus. I didn’t even take my bolus. My blood sugars this morning, 122, that’s perfect for me. Didn’t have to bolus to drink my coffee with sugar. My body will run on that. I know what your thinking, no wonder your sugars crash all the time. I just do not have an appetite.

This morning I woke up tired, and not suffering from too much from pain. That has changed again, I’m going to have to make myself get some good moving around, to try to stretch those muscles.